Post by Kate Bishop on Jul 15, 2014 17:51:24 GMT -5
As I walked out one morning fair, I found myself drawn thoughtlessly back to the place
we used to live and you still do now without me, around the back away from the road
I found a hunk of rusting bulk of a shattered old piano, someone had torn out some
of the key with cruel callousness so that one could only ever play minor melodies.
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So I sat down in my sadness and played sad songs on the minor keys of a broken piano.
And now I wonder though this city like a child lost in the fog, from the hills to the river,
down stream past the island I've had time to think about what songs you listen to now I'm gone
we used to live and you still do now without me, around the back away from the road
I found a hunk of rusting bulk of a shattered old piano, someone had torn out some
of the key with cruel callousness so that one could only ever play minor melodies.
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She was starting to loose days. It scared her. She couldn't remember what day it was, what she had done last night or the day before, it had all bled into same sorry long never ending mission of trying to keep peace. Kate hadn't seen another Avenger, she'd been avoiding them, avoiding the tower. She'd left her card at home not really caring if they managed to get it up or running. They didn't need her. There was a fury in her heart, except it didn't burn out, it felt like it was consuming everything in her chest as it grew and it was hard not to be alarmed about it. It cast doubts on her job, what she was meant to be doing. She was letting personal feelings get in the way and as much as she tried to get rid of them she found herself feeling it.
Tossing her bow onto the roof top she let herself half collapse and half sit down, it was cold and it was starting to rain but it didn't bother. She looked to the sky...she wanted to drive upstate and look at the stars all night, go someone she could clear her head but she couldn't. She was stuck feeling like a tourist in her own city. She didn't recognise parts of it anymore.
It was strange to be the victim, as much as they were Avengers they were also victims, they had been displaced from their homes, separated from their friends and family. She had lost everything just like the people she was struggling to protect and she couldn't bring herself to go back into her apartment below. It was full of memories. Full of ghosts of another world that might not exist any more. She wondered what her friends were doing. If Billy was trying to save the world from the other side. Wondered if Clint was okay...that one almost brought tears to her eyes.
What did she do now? Kate had never felt this lost. She had run out of plays. This would have been the kinda night she'd show up on his door step, bruised and battered and tired and cold and he would have known what to do. He would have handed her a coffee with a smile and told her what they were going to do because they were a team. That was what they did. Then he was gone. Kate didn't realise she was crying, it felt strange...though to be fair she'd been bottling it up for far too long. Except it was okay now, there was no one here to see her cry. No one there to make coffee and smile and tell her what to do.
Kate remember this feeling well, like being made of glass about to shatter and she had promised nothing would make her feel like this again. It was her own fault. She'd got too close to people. After all, everything came to pass, except she didn't expect this to pass so fast.
So I sat down in my sadness and played sad songs on the minor keys of a broken piano.
And now I wonder though this city like a child lost in the fog, from the hills to the river,
down stream past the island I've had time to think about what songs you listen to now I'm gone